Saturday

My sleep schedule has been really off for a long time. I think it first happened during my four-month busy stretch when I would regularly work on my computer until after 11:00 just to try to catch up. All that screen time meant I had trouble falling asleep until after midnight, and then I'd roll out of bed around 8 in the morning, show up at work around 9, and run on adrenaline until midnight again.

When things finally slowed down, I never did get back into the habit of falling asleep before 11:30. I've still been fighting with my alarm clock, which goes off at 7:35. I usually fall back asleep, roll out of bed around 8, rush to get to work around 9, and get really sad when I realize that means I can't leave until after 6, assuming I don't take a lunch break. In my dream world, I'd be a morning person who would get to work at 8, leave at 5:30, and be able to walk home before dark.

This late-night sleep schedule also means that I've been sleeping until 9:30 on weekends, which hasn't happened since before I started working almost two years ago! At first this was nice. I was proud of myself for catching up on much-needed sleep. Then it became weird--what happened to me?? I longed to get back to my old schedule of waking up at 8:30 on weekends and getting things done (or not, but I could decide that for myself!) with my mornings.

That brings us to today, Saturday. I woke up at 7:15, but it felt like 9. I looked at the clock, and - shocked - told myself to go back to bed for an hour. I dozed for what felt like forever. Then I couldn't stand it anymore and crawled out of bed... at 7:50.

Now why can't I wake up naturally that early on weekdays??