Good morning?

I've had a really hard time sleeping lately, and I have no idea why. I just can't fall asleep before midnight (or later), but then when my alarm goes off at 7:35, I have to drag myself out of bed. Lately I've been so tired that I push the snooze button two or three times, and when I finally wake up enough to realize that it's after 8, I have to rush. I've actually begun anticipating this, and before I start getting ready for bed around 10, I pack my breakfast and lunch for the next day so that literally all I have to do in the morning is wash my face, brush my teeth, throw on some clothes, and deal with my hair.

So I was really excited to sleep in this morning. This is the first weekend day in a month that I've had nothing scheduled in the morning, so I closed my blinds tightly and told myself I'd sleep late.

Not so much.

I woke up at 7:20 for some unfathomable reason. That's even earlier than my alarm goes off on work days! The sunlight was streaming through my closed blinds and the room felt like the middle of the day. I wasn't even tired. But I know that seven hours of sleep is not enough for me (I've always been one of those people who consistently needs 8 1/2), so I threw a pillow over my face to darken the room, kept in my earplugs (the street noise bothers me, so I sleep with them almost every night), and told myself I was not allowed out of bed until 9:30.

At 7:40 I got up to go to the bathroom after an endless twenty minutes of trying to make myself sleep. When I climbed back into bed, I figured I could "rest" while reading the news. I did that for an hour. 8:45 is close enough to 9:30, right?? I'm getting up. Maybe I'll take an afternoon nap or something, or maybe tonight, for the first time in weeks, I'll fall asleep before midnight.